• ​Rebecca Tasker

Guest Blogger // The Journey

     When I first found this article by Rebecca Tasker I was completely taken by how deeply it spoke to me. I feel like she was writing about me, about my story, and it made me realize I wasn't alone. There are other people out there struggling with what I struggle with, experiencing what I've experienced.. and so with her permission I wanted to re-blog it for all of my followers to read, so you too could experience that same "I'm not alone" feeling. 

-  Adele    

"The Journey" by Rebecca Tasker 

     People often chat to me about how frequently they second-guess themselves and their training choices.  Sometimes they have a strong background in traditional or natural horsemanship but it feels like something is missing in their relationship with their horses.  Maybe they find themselves flitting from one 'method' or trainer to the next, unable to commit to any one thing for long enough to see real results (or a lack of) before moving onto something else.  Maybe they have followed a particular 'guru' or style of training but something has happened that they're uncomfortable with, to make them question their loyalty to that person or method.  Often they are absolutely convinced of the benefits of positive reinforcement for horses, but peer pressure from friends, coaches or social media and the desire to conform is overwhelming and causes them to continually doubt themselves.  And often they really want to train under a positive reinforcement paradigm, but old habits keep getting in the way.      Regardless, my heart truly goes out to those people. To you, if you're one of them.  I've been there.  What it means is that you are a seeker of truth, you're trying to better yourself for the sake of your horse, you're thinking critically and striving for improvement.  That's a beautiful thing.

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     And I get it - there's so much information available out there, online and in person, and it seems that each trainer you listen to, or article you read, is recommending different methods/techniques (and sometimes dishing out judgement or subtle derision of alternative ways of doing things). It can be difficult to sort through it all and feel confident and consistent in which parts you should take home and actually implement with your horse.  This is only made worse when the path you're walking is a lonely one, and outside of the accepted mainstream, such as it is for positive reinforcement or clicker trainers. ​    I have personally sat in the audience at clinics of very well-known and respected international horsemen and listened to them mock and denigrate positive reinforcement training, while clearly having little to no idea of how it works (let alone having given it a proper try themselves).  I have left those clinics rather irritated at the ego on display, but still with a degree of respect for the horsemanship they practice and with a few ideas to take home with me.

"Knowledge makes people humble.  Arrogance makes people ignorant."

Sometimes people comment how lucky I am to have "found my path" and have so much clarity and confidence in how I want to train (and how I don't).  Yes I do feel pretty secure in my training choices, at a basic level, but it's still an ongoing journey and I still question myself constantly and doubt myself regularly.      After all, this is an ongoing and lifelong process.  I'm constantly playing 'devils advocate' with myself, watching other trainers (of all species) and questioning the way I do things or whether I could improve what I'm doing. I think that's important to do, but it often actually causes me to feel less sure of myself! Such is life.  I've learned to be ok with this sort of discomfort, it comes with stretching outside of comfort zones and it's a temporary feeling. As I work through the new ideas in my mind, or with my horses, or in conversation with peers and mentors, I consolidate and integrate and then continue on.  I'm sure this is a process most people are familiar with to some extent. Also, these things take time - for over 15 years I have been working through questions like "What feels right to me?" "How can I balance what is best for the animal with what is practical and efficient?" "Where do I sit ethically on that spectrum?" "How can I combine the useful parts of both 'common practice' and 'best practice' without compromising my integrity?"       Crucially, I've had some really challenging life experiences that helped cement my own ethical code when it comes to horses, and form the basis of my unrelenting dedication to empathetic and ethical training.  During these times I doubted my own decisions and skills, felt lost, beat myself up, flailed around a bit then (eventually) found solid earth again and emerged stronger and more confident and with the benefit of hindsight.  As usual, it's the difficult times in life that provide the biggest insights and catapult us on our way to clarity.

     Bear with me here, and I'll give you an example.  When I think back 12 years or so to when I was a Customs drug dog handler, I vividly recall my frustration and ethical quandary over the way I was made to 'teach' my dog Oscar 'obedience'. (Clue: with a choke chain).  "Get more muscle into it. Correct him harder. HARDER." was the constant refrain, until I snuck away one lunch break with a clicker and some biscuits, hid behind a warehouse out the back of the airport and taught him what he needed to know, MY way.   A few months later down in Trentham I had to bite my tongue and hide my tears of empathy when the police dog trainer in charge of our graduation course took Oscar's lead from me and jerked the chain so hard he yelped and was thrown off his feet (he was a very large black Labrador, so there was some force behind that 'correction'). *  

     There were a few reasons I left that job but that was definitely part of it. To this day I question whether I could have been a better advocate for my dog, but the reality is I was young and relatively inexperienced, and working without proper support or mentorship in a military-style hierarchy.  Regardless, I left the dog section even more convinced that I needed to follow my gut and stick with reward-based training, much more aware of the gaps in my own knowledge and capabilities, and absolutely adamant that I would never again put myself in the situation of being powerless and forced to follow someone else's orders on how to train my animals.  To this day, if I am taking my horse to a clinic or lesson with someone I haven't trained with before, I remind myself of my role as her advocate and rehearse how I am going to remove her immediately if the need arises.  I'm not a fan of conflict so the idea of doing this doesn't sit comfortably but I am ready to do it anyway.     The point of relaying all of this, is that if you're second-guessing yourself, or feeling like you don't know who to listen to or how to proceed, or that things just aren't working for you, please understand that it's totally NORMAL.  We all feel like that at different stages and many of us throughout our lives!

So in practical terms, what can you do if you're feeling that way?

  1. Find your tribe.  I feel SO strongly about this one.   It can be a lonely road sometimes, and if you train with positive reinforcement but are surrounded by opinionated traditional horse people, it's very helpful to have friends and allies who 'get it'.   They can lend an ear, give advice, critique your training and listen to you vent.  The easiest way to find these people, in my experience, is either online or through clinics.  A few years ago I started a Facebook group specifically for New Zealand-based equine positive reinforcement trainers and we now have over 600 members nation-wide.  It's a very active, friendly group and is a great way to not only get 'virtual' support from each other but I've also attended a few casual get-togethers organised by members and made many friends.  (If you're a kiwi, come join us!  If you're not a kiwi, have a look for a similar group in your area/country, or consider starting one up).  

  2. Do some soul searching.  If there's something in your gut that says "I don't like doing that to my horse but so-and-so says it's necessary", stop and just have a listen to that voice.  You do need to provide your horse with consistent, clear boundaries and good communication. You do NOT need to do anything that compromises your integrity or ethics, no matter how 'normal' other horse people might consider that to be.

  3. Do some research.  There's a lot of tradition and myth in horsemanship.  When in doubt, look to the science, and to your gut, and to your horse for answers.   

  4. Question things.  Just because a 'professional' says you should do something, doesn't mean you should.  Never mind how much you've paid for his/her advice.  Your horse is without a voice and at the mercy of whoever is holding the reins or rope.  If a trainer/clinician can't explain to your satisfaction why they are recommending a particular technique or method, that should raise alarm bells. If they get defensive or dismissive when you question them, that should escalate to a full-blown siren!  

​     So there's some slightly rambling thoughts about my own journey (so far) which hopefully helps to make you feel less alone, and also some tips on how to manage the nagging self-doubt or second-guessing that so many of us subject ourselves to.  I hope it's helpful.   I'd love to hear your thoughts in the  comments. Cheers, Bex *  (To be clear, the operational detection work was all trained positively, using play rewards and no corrections.  It was the other early-stage obedience stuff that I am describing above.  Also, things have improved a lot in NZ drug and explosives detector dog training since then, largely thanks to some inspiring and dedicated trainers who have introduced and implemented marker training into the detector dog community here in NZ.  Unfortunately, any improvements were too late for me and Oscar).  ​

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